A listener needs some space too

People said that I am a good listener.

BUT

Aku jadi sangat messy bila org cakap non stop x nak berhenti, and then dia expects kita dok dengar. Nak2 when my mood macam haram. Tapi dia does not even want to listen apa aku cakap. What I did are:

• Said hmmmmm, oh ye, oh macam tu and etc
• Not look to their eyes. Cari idea pandang tempat lain. Pretend tak focus. Cara ni selalu berkesan. Cth ekstrem:

                                         

• Balas balik like story telling competition. Self centred. Bagi die diam terus.
• If masa tu ada 3 gf, try speak/chat to kawan yang lagi satu tu (yang senyap)...Let minah/mamat yang kuat berleter tu know that dunia ni bkn die sorg yang punya.
• Cara direct to the point. Said: ‘Minah, aku ade hal ni, blablablablablablabla I’ll talk to you later la ye’

Pesanan rakyat: Amaran! cara- cara di atas bersesuaian utk org yg tough ala-ala keras, macam aku. Dont use this kat org tua ek. Tak baik. Nanti ade yang makan siku.

Interviews

These are some of my experiences attending interviews:

A small company in a big city.

I was interviewed by a woman and I feel good on the conversation going on. It is natural and convincing. But, suddenly she said: ‘Actually, we have another candidate who has experience in property management’. Ekeleh mak cik ni, then why you called me for an interview? I know la I am a freshgrad. But things getting unexpected when she called me one month later. I got the job! And yeah, I like the job :). I was told that the other candidate who get the job cant stand working at the company and just left in one day. Uhuh mak cik, don’t ever judge people by a fake first impression. Look what she has done to you...tettttt.

A bank. Sales position.

It was not my intention to attend the walk in interview. I was supposed to accompany my friend. Hell yeah, she assumed I’m interested and going to join her. So I just follow the flow. Alang-alang I paid the cab fee kannnn?… I was interviewed by two mans and I can say that they are not really friendly. I just answer the question sharply and of course, convincing. I was the first one on the list (eheh, because we come really early)
     I expect nothing, as sales are not for me. I’m not the one that will ask twice when you did not want it. How come I can sell something. That’s it.
     Btw, I got a call to go for a medical check up and offer letter. I turned down the offer… as I know myself.

A bank. Management trainee.

Interviewed by four beautiful women. Chinese. It was a nice interview. I’m pretty confidence to get it. But, I am not. I guess Allah is preparing the best for me :)

A bank. Graduate Programme.

The first phase is awkward. We are evaluated by group activities and hell yeah it is kind of unfair. I was upset as the interviewers judging four groups in one shot and choosing the most outstanding candidate for the next phase. I appreciate the fact that it is a unique structured interview. But mannn, there are some members who even do not want to hear opinions and would like to talk by themselves? Do you consider such ‘shine’ candidate as your future leaders? I hope it is a no.

My top 10 regrets

1. Every kekasaran bahasa/ acts yang menyinggung parents’ hearts. I did mistakes. I was young and sometimes stubborn. Terima kaseh mak ayah. :)
2.  Missed memories with my late sister. She passed away when I was young. I never have ‘girls’ time’. That’s why kasar nak mampuih.
3.  I left a friend. I left her because she said she become my friend because of (fill in the blank). Dear friend, how I wish I can delete those words from this brain.
4. Being a garang sister. Kesian adek dok ngadap akak dia yang garang.
5.  I talk when I need to, depends on who is the person. Yang tak kenal see me as quiet and sombong… Try la dekat, I will make your life miserable..eheh
6. Got Cs in Physics and Chemistry STPM. D.i.s.a.s.t.e.r. !
7.  I scold kaw2 a younger boy when he treats me like his girl. Ape pegang2, senggol2, gedik2? I was 10 years old that time wokey. And, he never come by when hari raya, even one. Great! it would be awkward if he did!
8.  Terpijak anak kucing sampai mati. This is zalim. Alamak, tak perasan, there is something in the guni.
9.  Never learn silat, taekwando and etc. Should ‘bagi’ je org2 yg kuang hajak.
10. do not know how to swim.

              

Today's hasrat di hati

Today, I am 24 years and 9 days old, and I have decided to:

1. Create a blog as I wish my future anak, cucu and cicit to know what I have gone through. DONE
2. Be sincere for everything as I found Ikhlas does make me happy and it is Barakah.
3. Become anak solehah, sebaik mungkin. Btw, I admire a man yang sanggup urut parents dengan sabarnye. Handsome! I have seen one, but did not dare to ask his number.
4.  Husband screening…? Maybe …eh, a must!